Thursday, July 26, 2007

Why Here, Why Now?

You're probably wondering why I have suddenly decided to start a blog about faith...

The better question though, is why I haven't done this sooner. What stopped me from blogging about this area of my life?

Until a few years ago, I had a very nice pre-packaged faith. A faith that said "if you attend this kind of church, you therefore believe the following things". It was a nice faith, and the Jesus I met through it has kept me through some really rough times.

A few years ago, everything began to fall apart. I realized my pastor was spiritually abusive. I moved to a new city, found a job here, and heard God telling me to leave the church I was at.

I started a new life... with my old baggage.

So here I am today, two years later. I've changed deeply, in ways I still can't understand. I've struggled through two years of tremendous growth and healing.

I'm standing today, with a million questions. Who am I? Where am I going? Why am I here?

This blog will be my place to explore how to incorporate such a seemingly-fragile faith into my daily life. I may rant, I may share, or even open the floor for debateful discussions.

You have the right to disagree with me, and express it in any respectful way you choose. I don't expect you all to agree with me, and I look forward to fun chats about our similarities... and our differences.